identity crisis

i always had a feeling that there is something wrong with me.....that a certain part of me is missing or just waiting to be discovered.but the thing is it might not be acceptable in the world which i live.
IDENTITY CRISIS is how i define this dilemma.
yes i am a girl....
but there was this instance wherein i felt something deep for this girl...
i don't know if it was admiration or infatuation but it was something that can bring butterflies in my stomach...ouch....something i wasn't accustomed to...that kind of feeling with a girl but i want to know the possibilities...
we became good friends and almost hang out everytime and anywhere....and some moments we almost treated each other like we were an item...a real couple...but not that intimate....
it felt good and at some moment it felt right...but i know that the society is not yet that ready to accept what we have...so we parted ways...
it was an awful moment in my life but i have to move on and i have to live my life "normally"....
so when i thought i got over it and i was okay with my life there comes this article on a magazine that brought back all the experiences that i want to escape....
now i just want to curl up and die...
or maybe hibernate in a very faraway land....
or migrate in a place wherein i can be john doe...
don't like this feeling....it was something that i want to forget
something i want to leave in my past...together when she said it was over...