mhycmerized...

you had me waiting for more than an hour...i was freakingly annoyed...i was about to give up but the thought of smacking you head on made a better sense so i decided to be a little patient...then you texted me that you're almost there...i was so nervous yet still mad...my feet aches as i browsed through some books at the nearby bookstore...i was thinking 'i waited for almost 2 hours, now it's time for him to wait'...but still, malakas ka lang siguro sa kin, i arrived on the dot where you were...you were just staring at me and i gave you an annoyed look...you looked up and smiled...

that was it...

you had me...

i was mhycmerized...

eheads...

janet...moi...amer...leng and kat...


3 groups rolled into one...

groups one and two...


as if may pinaguusapan tlga...


rak en roll....


happy to be here...


group pics...


weeeee...


peace out!


hehehe...


japan japan!


smileyyyyy....

i know...we haven't taken pics of eheads...hahaha...so silly of us...but it was a night of fun & rak en roll...enjoyed it til the last song...hahaha...

no longer good at this

it has been a while since i poured my heart into this. it has been a while since i last placed something note worthy here. it has been a while since i became the real me. i would rather drown myself to things that i thought matters, things that i never really cared about when i was still the real me.

i miss the bliss of innocence every time i look at another person's eyes. i miss the heartfelt smile, the genuine smile that i normally have on my face. i miss the people that really matter in my life, i miss their presence and their unconditional love. i miss being the girl that i was, not the girl that i've become.

a very close friend recently asked me, "inah kamusta? in a real sense na kamusta?". i wanted to cry when i realized what was the right answer. i told him "Empty" and a drop of tear fell from my eye. i wanted to hug him so tight and plead to save me. i want things to be alright again, i want to be alright again. i want to have the sense of security, the feeling of comfort and knowing that i belong. i am continuously drowning in a glass of water that i can't find my way up.

i have been hiding from this face for a long time, i have been running away from the pain and making everyone believe (including myself) that i am fine and that i am strong. i am so scared to face everything head on to jumpstart a new life. i want to claim who i was.