a daughter's love letter

Dear Papa,

It has been 3 years since you went back to the loving arms of God. I am at peace knowing that you are with Him. I wouldn't say that I am happy but thinking selfishly, I wish that we were given more time.

Papa I see your traces everywhere I look. There are a lot of things I wish I could say to you. I miss looking into your eyes and say 'estiopek'. I miss your hands, your voice, your advices, our story telling time, our 'walkings', our bonding, your hug and most of all, I miss hearing you say you love me.

I have lots of things I wish I could tell you right now. Papa, I am sorry if it often cross my mind that I don't need teaching in my life. I am sorry if I thought that you're correcting my mistakes just to humiliate me. I would give anything and everything to hear your advice on how to live my life. Papa i just realized that the more I grow up, the more that I need your guidance. I came to the point where I would look up in the sky and ask silently all the things that I wanna ask you. I often think, what would be your opinion about things and about my decisions. Papa even if I know that you cannot physically see what I am now, I wish that whatever I am and whatever I'll become that you'll be proud of me. I wish people could see that I am really your daughter through and through.

Papa I never thanked you enough on how much you loved all of us. You are the only person that I know in this world who have the capability to love as much as you did. Thank you for giving us your best and for being my superhero...for being much more than that. I thank God that i was born to be your daughter, because He gave me a father who loves me unconditionally. You are and will always be my first love. And I am going to make sure that i would let my future children know how amazing their Lolo's capacity to love people. I am hoping that I could somehow be like that.

Papa I know in time we will see each other again. I'll be able to see you eyes, your smile and hear your voice again. And when that time comes, we have eternity to talk about things and let each other feel how much we love each other. I am looking forward on that day. I love you Papa. You are always in my heart. I will always and forever be a proud Papa's girl. Estiopek Papa and I miss you.

Inah